Can I just kill myself? Srsly, I'm tired of living. I'm tired of the people around me. Wish I was never been born. I shouldn't be here in the first place. I'm better off if I die. I want to disappear. I feel so small. I can't face the world or even look myself in the mirror. I feel very unimportant. Please, somebody save me from this. I might break. God, I know you were always there for me. I know you are the one who made me for my parents. But could you just please take me back? Please? I'm tired. This is not just the first time I want to die. God, Mom, Glenn... sorry for being so weak. I'm not that strong. I have been loving you. I want to die. I'm sorry. I love you.
~Alexa
Good Evening. Today is our 8th Monthsary of my boyfriend so I will dedicate this post to him. Pardon me if I will use our native language in this post "bisaya". :)
Dear Glenn Paul / GP / Mpoii / Poknat / pOINKnat / Superman / Bibiboi / PoiiPoii / Papa / Kuya / Mama / My life's navigation system ♥ ,
Happy Happy 8th Monthsary poknat. Salamat karon nga adlaw kay imo jud ku gipalipay pag-ayo. Sorry sad kay nahurot imo kwarta hihi. Yehey! 8th months nata poknat, hapit nata mag 1 year. Gamay nalang. I'm sure magdugay pa jud ta. Pila pa ka years ang ato e-celebrate. Karon nga adlaw sangko sa langit akong kalipay ug pasalamat sa Ginoo. Sorry kung gisapot ko karon aa? Ambot ooy ngano taas man jud ko ug pride hmp >o< Taga ampo nako sa gabie poknat kay naa jud ka. Gina'pray nako nga tana magdugay ta ug nagpasalamat ko kay Papa Jesus kay iya ka gihatag sa akoa. Busog kaayo ko karon ooy, salamat sa pagpakaon hihi. Kabalu na jud ka nga Jollibee akong favorite. Sige lang poknat, pagmaka'kwarta ko mubawi jud ko nimu. Promise nako na. Happy kaayo ko gaina nga nag'uban ta miskan kadjut ra. Kabalu ko nga naga pangita jud ka ug way ug imu jud gina'sigurado nga magkauban ta sa atong monthsary miskan kadjut ra kay kabalu ka nga mao nay gustu nako ug nagpasalamat ko ana. Salamat kay imo kung gihuna-huna perminte, imu gihuna-huna unsa ang makapalipay sa akoa ug dili makapalipay nako. Sana dili ka maghuna'huna karong adlawa nga maulaw ko makig'kuyug nimo. Kabalo biya jud ka nga gusto jud ko nga permi ta kuyog, kung pwedi palang gani dili nata magbuwag pero kabalu ku nga impossible na kay naa patay mga obligasyon sa atong mga ginikanan. Kung wala ko naka- holding hands sa imo gaina or nakabuhi ko, Sorry. Makalimot man gud ku sahay poknat. Pero promise jud wala ko naulaw makipag-holding hands nimo. Kung pwedi palang gani magpusas tang duha para dili najud mabulag atong mga kamot. Gusto tika gunitan perminte, gakson ug kissan. Gusto nako na himuon sa imu kay love tika. Sa imoha ra nako na gusto himuon.
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Ugh ! I really hate those people who doesn't think before they speak. The annoyance you go through when someone just speaks about everything without even thinking about it. Some things we say may be meant as a joke, but to someone else it isn't funny at all! In this world today, some things cannot be taken as a joke and should not be said in such a fashion. I sometimes forget to think before I speak, I don’t try to hurt anyone purposely but only after I've said it, I realized it wasn't something I should of said. I encourage everyone to think about what you say because it can never be taken back.
Enough with my drama, let's talk about kpop. Yeah I'm also a kpop fanatic and my bias is SHINee :) I've heard Jonghyun had a car accident and he had a nose surgery because of it. Thanks to Aera for this information. And now finally Jonghyun is back with a new hair color. He dyed his hair white. Here is his picture →. For me it doesn't suit him, he is more handsome with a brown hair and key suits the white color. Huhuhu. SMEnt! wae did you choose that color ? >o<
And for Anime. I'm still waiting patiently for the next episode 176 of Fairytail. Hiru Mashima said (the creator of it) that "it's actually not over yet. I can't say more than this, but I hope you watch the rerun starting in April and wait for the day I can announce some good news. Anime is not the end. Don't stop believing." So while wating, my attention now is on Shingeki No Kyojin. I'm watching the anime and reading the manga also. It's a new anime and I assure you that it will not disappoint you. It's so epic \o/
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A girl wants to have a date that is memorable. Bring her to a romantic place wherein the two of you will talk in a good manner. Give her a flower, a bouquet of flowers or even a stalk of a rose. Hold her hand and guide her. Make sure that the place has a good ambiance. Once you arrive in the venue, try to ask her if she is happy. Try to give your best just to see her blush. Don’t stare at her as if you want to eat her, she will feel uncomfortable with it. Make a dance, a slow dance. Make an eye contact with her. Whisper to her the words you want to say. The words that you feel. Then tell her the three magic words, I love you.
Good Evening. It's been a long long time since the last time I visited my blog. So sorry, laziness deactivated :D how are you gusie ? missed me ? imisshuuu too :)) I've been so busy spending my whole summer watching movies/anime and reading manga. Some of I've watched are High School of the Dead, Durara!, Angel Beats, Battle Royale, Alice In Wonderland, Kuhmar and Harold go to White Castle. And now I'm looking forward to watch Warm Bodies. Any one who has a copy of it ? gemme gemme. So if you noticed I've changed my skin. Thanks for puiling for this beautiful skin. I've also change my background music entitled Just Give Me A Reason by Jun Sisa. he is a Filipino and he do covers. If you want to hear more of his songs just go search him on youtube. I've been hooked up with this song recently. I like his voice. I haven't heard the original version of it and I have no intention to listen to it. The cover is enough for me :)
PS:
Happy 18th Birthday to my good looking childhood friend Ian Dale Paradiang Blanco. We've been together since kindergarten. Our mother's are best friend. And just wanna share it to you guise that I am already in my 2nd Year College now. Hoohooo. My section is IT2A and of course me and my boyfriend are classmates together with our friends. Cheers ! ♥
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Hello ! I'm back. Good thing my comment box is working now. Thanks to my tomodachi Fiffy, she fixed it for me so you can now rape my comment box kekeke. thank you so much dear for fixing it, you're so kind ^^ and she makes nice skins too, try checking her site and you will love all her skins for sure ^^. I want to thank stefa-chan too for my desktop wallpapers. Are you looking for desktop cute themes and wallpapers ? then go visit her blog, she knows how to customize your desktop ^^
And to my tomodachi Joelie who is having her birthday right now. I still want to wish her a happy happy birthday even though she won't be able to read this :D Hey dear sis thank you so much for being a good friend to me. Having you in my life is a blessing for me. We've been together since I started high school and now we're in college and you're still there for me through ups and downs ^^ Please don't change, stay kind, loving, God-fearing and stay JOELIE. 3J-GEXA loves you so much. Stay pretty, God Bless :">
ANIME
Hey there otakus, there's a live action of Black Butler or known as Kuroshitsuji. I haven't watch the anime of this but I will watch the live action for sure.
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*According to Oricon News, a live action movie of Kuroshitsuji was announced to be premiered this year. Mizushima Hiro (official website) will play Sebastian. Anime director Sato Keiichi will co-direct the movie with Otani Kentaro (live action movie of "NANA"). The story is an original, which takes place 130 years after the episodes of the manga.
Next week will be or midterm exam. So after the exam I'll be watching the live action of Ouran High School ^^
A gift for my tomodachis' with ♥
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Thank you because you are willing to read this post. Please lend me your time for a couple of minutes. I'm an avid fan of ARASHI and my bias is Jun Matsumoto. I'll do anything for this group, just like some other fangirls do ^^ So i'm calling all the Arashians all over the world to please vote for Jun-kun ♥ here → . You can vote 15 times a day (: GMA Asianovelas: The Heart Of Asia is a major commercial television & radio network in the Philippines.
and the voting continues....
[World Music Awards] Arashi among the nominees to World's Best Album with "Popcorn" / Vote:
► http://www.worldmusicawards.com/#!worlds-best-album/c18ue
[World Music Awards] SMAP & Arashi among the nominees to World's Best Group / Vote:
► http://www.worldmusicawards.com/#!worlds-best-group/c1epr
To those people who doesn't know this group, lemme introduce them to you.
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Here's a gift for you.
Domo arigatou ☺
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Happy New Year Everyone \m/ I just got home. I celebrated New Year in my boyfies' house and because it is already very late for me to go home, I slept there. Do't worry I slept in his room, and he on the living room lewls XD I'm so happy that I welcome the New Year together with him ♥. What is your New Years resolution ? Me ? hmm.. I won't be late anymore in my class and not be too moody and I'll be sweeter to my boyfie ♥ I've changed my layout. Thanks to M-iichiko for this awesome simple layout. I really love simple layouts. The combination of black, white and gray ♥_♥ Ohh ! Let's congrats her for having this layout as the SOTD.
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You see that handsome guy in my icon ☜(ﾟヮﾟ☜) ? That's my Jun Matsumoto. Isn't he lovely ? kekeke~ I am an avid fan of him and his group Arashi. Who is Arashians here ? say present XD I started loving him in Hana Yori Dango then followed in Gokusen and so on. I watched all of his drama's, movies. Yehey ! he's not married yet unlike my Jin Akanishi T_T he just married to Meisa Kuroki, a model. She has given birth to her first baby in the afternoon of September 23rd.
ANIME
Darn it ! No episodes this week of Fairy Tail because of holidays. I'm so darn excited to watch it. I want to see Mirajane with her devil form. Episode 163 please come out already T.T Fairy Tail airs on Saturday and will be released on the internet on Sunday. They will released the ep. 163 this Jan. 4 and I heard they will released 2 episodes this week. Maybe they will released ep. 164 on Sunday. They should !! Or else i'll destroy their company with firecrackers *evil laugh*.
That's all for now lovely people. I ran out of words already.
Salamat. ♥ :)
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Yoohoo ! Merry Christmas everyone ! This Christmas is soooo special to me because this is our 1st Christmas ♥ Hope there is more Christmas for us to be celebrate together.
We Filipino's celebrate our Christmas a little different from other countries. Christmas season is the most awaited celebration for us, the Filipino people. It is the best time of the year for Filipinos who worked overseas, and those who migrated to other countries to visit their homeland, the Philippines and spend holidays with their loved ones. Young and old are excited when Christmas season comes. Everybody is busy decorating their houses and offices with sparkling "parol" or lanterns, putting colorful Christmas lights, preparing for Christmas party, buying and wrapping of gifts, cooking different recipes for relatives and friends to partake, travel to other provinces to visit relatives, enjoying the holidays with loved ones. We celebrate the longest Christmas season in the world. As soon as it is “Ber” ( as in SeptemBER”), festive Christmas carols begin to play on the radio, and Christmas decorations begin to appear. Christmas trees begin to appear a bit later, around the second or third week of November ( just before the US Thanksgiving holidays ) The Christmas song play until Three Kings Day ( first Sunday of January) and the decorations stay even longer, sometimes up to February.
This is how we celebrate our Christmas:
September
- Play Filipino Christmas songs
- Decorate homes and offices with Christmas lights, lanterns.
- Prepare for Christmas parties. Common activities include Monito/Monita (Kris Kringle), musical or theatrical performances and parlor games.
- Begin spending 13th month pay by going Christmas shopping
- Go “karoling” or serenade neighbors, friends and benefactors with Christmas carols to spread holiday cheers.
- Reward carolers with cash and/or snacks.
- Attend "Simbang gabi”, which is a daily Mass for nine days, held at dawn, beginning December 16.
- When available, eat puto bumbong (sticky rice steamed inside a "bumbong," or small bamboo tube), "bibingka" (rice cake with salted eggs and fresh coconut meat) and "suman" (steamed rice wrapped in banana leaves) outside the church. Wash them down by drinking steaming “salabat” (ginger brew), tsokolate ( native chocolate drink) or coffee.
- Celebrate with numerous Christmas parties and start your gift-giving.
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Hello Philippines and hello world, lewls. I've been tagged by my babes Polo,
thank you so much babe for tagging me :)
Once you have been tagged, you are supposed to write a note, with 25 random things, facts, habits or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tag you, it's because I want to know more about you. Your cooperation is highly appreciated.
I'm a music lover
I'm not a punctual type of person Filipino time :D
I can be girly and boyish sometimes
Nothing Better by Brown Eyed Soul is my most favorite song
I like horrors
I'm not that friendly
I can be quite and the noisiest sometimes
So, I've been wrote 25 randoms fact about me . Do read , Do comment :)
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Ohmy ! I can really feel the essence of Christmas. 5 more days to go and it is already the birth of our creator. Yoohoo ! I received a chocolate and polvoron from my strict uncle hahaha and last night my boyfie gave me a ferrero rocher. He knows how much I love ferrero \m/ . I could eat a thousands of it ㅋ ㅋ ㅋ
As you can see I've changed my layout. It took me days to find a nice layout and to edit it on my blog. Thanks to NadirahAriff for this cute skin ^^ and while I'm changing my layout I forgot to copy the affiliates section T.T I can't remember the names and links of those lovely people. So if you are one of them, kindly tell me so I can put it back. So sorry dear :(
I also changed my background music. It is Kekasihku by Princess. This is the first time I've encountered this girl group. I like the song so I decided to DL it and make it as my next background music. Hope you like it too ^^
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Bem, Bella, and Bello are ugly monsters that are neither human nor animals, but they are peace-loving, righteous heroes who feel compelled to help humans in trouble. Because they are monsters, they are feared and detested by humans, and on top of that, pursued by the police. However, a friendship develops between them and a detective by mere accident. Through their contact with humans, Bem, Bella and Bello’s earnest wish to become human grow increasingly stronger. They battle evil for the sake of mankind, in the belief that they will be able to become humans one day.
Done watching Yokai Ningen Bem last night. This JDrama is sooo great. The actors acted so well especially my dear Kamenashi Kazuya (＾▽＾) Also they wear the same outfits each episode and no one seems to think it's unusual （ ´∀｀） Well, that's what a cartoon would be like so its expected (this drama is based off from an anime) I watched this because of Kame and I'm curious with the story of it. No matter how humans treated them cruelly, still they can't bear to ignore those people who needs their help. No matter how many times humans hurt them, they still believe the humans will accept them and they will become humans someday.
Kamenashi Kazuya a.k.a Bem - OMG . you call this an ugly monster ? srsly ? can't you see how handsome and perfect he is ? (#^.^#) if only all monster looks like him then there would be no reason to be afraid of XD I started liking Kame when watching Gokusen. He portrayed her role so man well (｡♥‿♥｡)
Suzuki Fuku a.k.a. Bello - I love this little kid ! He is such a scene stealer ! How I wish I could snatch him and make him as my lil brother (I'm only child) idc if he is a monster. He's not a bad monster anyway (＾▽＾) I guess he's the little kid in the drama Yamato Nadeshiko where Kame is also one of the main characters. Isn't he so adorable ? (#^.^#)
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Anne a.k.a Bella - Omo ~ she is great too. She is a fashion model. I haven;t seen her before in the drama but her acting is good also (＾▽＾) She acts like a mother to Bello.
I'm not the only one for you
but you're the only one for me.
-- Stay Close, Don't Go * Secondhand Serenade
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After All the stops and starts,
We keep coming back to these two hearts,
Two angels who've been rescued from the fall.
After All that we've been through,
It all comes down to me and you.
I guess it's meant to be,
Forever you and me, After All.
Poknat ♥,
Happy Happy 2nd Monthsary ^^ Everyday I could not help but thank God for giving you to me. You are the answer to my prayers and everything I always wanted. You are the one who understands me perfectly, I’m not saying both of us are saints, we have own glitches, darker periods but it’s short lived because both of us are determined not to hurt the other and to love truly and it is a FACT that either of us can’t live without the other. We are made for each other and this is just a simple note to say, I’m so honoured and lucky to have you in my life and by God’s grace, I’m sure that we are meant to go a long long way together. We are meant to be forever.. Having you in my life..... I couldn't ask for more ♥
Bibi ♥
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I'm Stuck on you
I've got this feeling down deep in my soul that I just can't lose
Guess I'm on my way
Needed a friend
And the way I feel now I guess I'll be with you 'til the end
Guess I'm on my way
Mighty glad you stayed
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Ang buhay kasi mga anak ay isang malaking connect the dots.
Nag movie marathon kami ni poknat ♥ kahapun . Pinanuud namin yung The Reunion at Bangkok Knockout . Pagkasama ko siya ayaw ko ng matapos ang araw . Gusto ko palagi ko siyang kasama . HAHA . idk ! ganito lang talaga siguro pag mahal mo ang isang tao . Pagkatapos naming nanood ay nagpakita siya ng mga simpleng magic pero lahat yun ay nahuhuli ko at binabara ko . HAHA , tawanan kami ng tawanan . Sabi niya pag-aaralan daw niya yun para sa susunod mapapaNGA-NGA na talaga ako . Ang sarap sa feeling na gagawin niya lahat para lang mapasaya ka .
Ang sarap ho mainlove :)
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So kahapon ay nag-away kami ng boyfie ko. Well, wala naman siyang kasalanan. Madali lang talaga akong mapikon at masyadong moody. Kahit mga maliliit na bagay na hindi naman dapat ikagalit ay ikinagagalit ko at minsan ay napapalaki ko pa ito. Hindi ko siya pinapansin kahapon at hindi niya alam kung ano ang nagawa niyang kasalanan. Eeh wala naman talaga. Naging tralala lang talaga ako. Alam ko na medyo napipikon na rin siya sa akin kahapon dahil ayaw kung kausapin niya ako pero binabalewala niya lang iyon at andon parin siya sa tabi ko. Idk kung anong pumasok sa isipan ko kahapon at iniwan ko siya sa canteen ng hindi man lang nagpapaalam. Umuwi ako at hindi niya alam na uuwi ako kasi akala niya na magc-cr lang ako. Idk pero sa kanya lang ako ganito. Alam ko minsan sumusobra na din ako sa pang-aaway ko sa kanya. Nakakapagsalita na ako ng mga masasakit na salita na pagsisisihan ko rin naman sa huli.Lagin kong sinasabi sa kanya na ayaw ko syang masaktan pero ako naman itung gumagawa ng paraan para masaktan siya T.T
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ABOUT ME
► Name ➔ Alexa ツ
► Will you answer all questions truthfully ➔ Yes
► You may start ➔ Alright
► Are you single ➔ No
► Are you happy ➔ Sometimes
► Are you bored ➔ Yes
► Are you sad ➔ No, not at the moment
► Are you Italian ➔ No
► Are you German ➔ No
► Are you Asian ➔ Yes
► Are you Irish ➔ No
► Are your parents still married ➔ Yes.
Read more »► Will you answer all questions truthfully ➔ Yes
► You may start ➔ Alright
► Are you single ➔ No
► Are you happy ➔ Sometimes
► Are you bored ➔ Yes
► Are you sad ➔ No, not at the moment
► Are you Italian ➔ No
► Are you German ➔ No
► Are you Asian ➔ Yes
► Are you Irish ➔ No
► Are your parents still married ➔ Yes.
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You know what is Liebster Blog award ?
Liebster Blog Award is given to up and coming bloggers who have less than 200 followers 
.“Liebster” is German for “favorite”. This award is the“favorite blog award” then. The rules for this one state that you answer the 11 questions asked by the Blogger who gave you this award.One must abide by the list of rules which are:
- Each person must list 11 things about themselves.
- Answer the 11 questions that the tagger has set for you PLUS you must create 11 questions of your own for the 11 people you will nominate with this award.
- Choose up to 11 bloggers linking them to your post.
- Go to their page and inform them of the nomination.
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"you'll only realize the value of a certain thing or person when its already gone''..... I wasn't able to return the love he unselfishly gave to me... He wasn't expecting anything in return but it gave me the guilt that I was too blind to see the things he did and the effort he exerted for me.... It was too late when I realized that I lost the person that could have been the happiness that I always dream of... he loved me..... but I was too scared and I hesitated.... I didn't respond to any of his actions to make me believe that he loves me.... he got tired.... Now, I realized that I love him but its too late now to put the things the way they are before.... that's my regret =[
Mahirap pag nandiyan siya, naiinis ako, naguguluhan at parang sumisikip ang mundo ko. Pero mas mahirap pala pag wala siya. Hindi ako masaya, wala akong dahilan para tumawa. nararamdaman kong kulang pala ang buhay ko. Naging duwag ako nung mga panahon na sobra mo akong minahal. Sa totoo lang ramdam ko naman yunpero nangibabaw parin ang pride ko at yung takot na baka masaktan lang ako sayo. Iniisip ko parin kasi noon na baka nagpapadala lang ako sa emosyon ko. Lagi lang akong naghahanap sayo ng dahilan kung bakit mo nga ba ako mahal. Sarado lang yung isip ko na kailangan lahat mapatunayan mo sakin para masabi mong totoo yung nararamdaman mo. Hindi naman ganun kalakas yung loob mo pero sumugal ka pa rin. Alam mo sa sarili mo na hindi ka ganun katapang pero ginawa mo, kahit mahirap, dahil yun ang gusto ko. May mga times na alam kong napapahiya ka na dahil sa mga sinasabi sayo ng tao tungkol sa pagpupursigi mo sakin. Alam ko ilang beses mo na rin ginustong tumigil na lang kasi parang naghihintay ka lang sa wala. Sinasabi ko sayo na wala kang mapapala sakin pero at the end of every day na gusto mo nang sumuko, bumabalik karin at humihingi sakin ng sorry. Pag tinatanong kita kung bakit, iisa lang naman ang lagi mong sagot.
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This is my 1st year college 2nd Sem study load . I've enrolled myself the day before the end of the enrollment. I'm with my boyfie that day . We enrolled together, so i'm not worried because i'm with him . Me and my boyfie have the same schedule (: I thought we will have the evening schedule because the morning and afternoon is fully loaded . Luckily ! we did it . Bachelor of Science in Information Technology - 1B . I'm grateful that we are only until 3:30 PM and not 9:00 PM ^^ Monday, Thursday, Saturday is a long day for me. We started our class this morning and the atmosphere is sooooo quite T.T unlike my section before. I miss BSIT - 1D T.T
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Who I am ? Konnichiwa ! I'm bbjjangmomo ツ. You can call me
KPOP
I am taken by the Superman. His name is Glenn Paul , I prefer Poknat. We began our disney story on 28 September 2012 until today. Out tandem name is bibipoknat. He always sing the song "Grow Old With You by Adam Sandler" to me even though he doesn't have such a good voice. He is my first boyfie and I guess I am the most luckiest girl in the world to have him in my life. All I can say is he is the only one that can stand my attitude. I'm always moody and he handle it easily without getting mad at me. We fight (yeah every couple fight) but we will suddenly end up getting back together without knowing about it. He always tries his best to make me feel happy and he always manage to draw a smile on my face when i'm upset. He always fulfill my wish.. I just want him to know that no matter how difficult things can be in the long run, he will still have me. He is my first and hopefully he'll be my last . Seriously I love him so much. God please make him mine and me his. Amen.
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